what is your sense of self like; did becoming engulfed in playing holden's music, writing program notes for it, etc. make you feel more like being yourself?
i thought about this for a while last night & today. i'm not actually 100% sure but i *think* that i actually felt less like myself. in fact, there was a sort of dissolution of the self that i believe often can occur when someone is fully invested into some sort of (life-overtaking) work - what self is there? there is just the music and the writing of words about the music. i actually point to this a bit in the may 2025 section, via removing the "I" from the sentences as the section accelerates.
I really liked the narrative structure of this post!
thanks!! :)
yay andrew :)
yay :D
what is your sense of self like; did becoming engulfed in playing holden's music, writing program notes for it, etc. make you feel more like being yourself?
i thought about this for a while last night & today. i'm not actually 100% sure but i *think* that i actually felt less like myself. in fact, there was a sort of dissolution of the self that i believe often can occur when someone is fully invested into some sort of (life-overtaking) work - what self is there? there is just the music and the writing of words about the music. i actually point to this a bit in the may 2025 section, via removing the "I" from the sentences as the section accelerates.
love you always so proud of you always
love you too (always!)
what a lovely piece of writing!
<3 ur the best
big year for u :)
let every year from now on be a big one for me
<3 GOOD JOB
ty vincent :DDD